It's been awhile since I wrote on here. Work has kept things very busy the last month or so, and is still going strong, but I had to write about the happenings here lately.
God is so surprising, and His timing is always perfect. I pray I never question His will or His ways and can always keep in mind that no matter how tough, or how great, God's plan is sovereign. And for that, I'm SO thankful that we don't have to figure it out on our own or worry about the outcome of life. He's got it all and will have it all throughout eternity. What a relief!!
Summing all of that together, I'm so thrilled to say that Nate and I are expecting again! We just found out a few days ago, much to our surprise. It wasn't something I thought I was ready for, yet, but again, God's plan is perfect and His way is perfect. What a huge, unexpected blessing!!
Upon finding out, my immediate thoughts and feelings were of fear, from what happened with our miscarriage in July. My whole reasoning behind not being ready was honestly not being ready to go through it again, if it did in fact happen, and not being ready to start trying, possibly subjecting myself to another broken heart. It sounds ridiculous as I type it out. Our God isn't a God of chance, and we don't have to look towards experiences with a negative perspective. An amazing friend of mine pointed out that I can't be in control of situations. All the eggs can't be in a row perfectly before I'm ready to begin a journey. So with that in mind, giving up control was the goal. And that I did, and look what God did in the midst. I'm not saying He did that as a result, but because of the new desire to let go of control, it was much easier for me to let go of the fear that gripped me as soon as I saw that positive pregnancy test.
She also reminded me the importance of being a good steward of the Lord's blessing. Thanking Him with my life and my attitude of faith, because He has been faithful to me! He has blessed us once again with a baby forming inside my womb, and I'm rejoicing!! I honestly didn't think I would be able to. I was scared from miscarrying about my feelings regarding the next, if the Lord blessed us in that way again. I was scared I wouldn't be able to just relax and be happy, but would be fearful and nervous the entire pregnancy. Thank the Lord, and Praise Him that I'm not scared.
We are SO ecstatic. We are so thankful and so blessed to have another journey and experience with pregnancy. We're praying for this child, for it's life and to hopefully meet this little one, this side of Heaven!
"For this child I prayed, and the LORD has granted me my petition that I made to him." 1 Samuel 1:27
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Awesome verse!!
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